Don’t ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that.
Because what the world needs is people who have come alive. -Harold Whitman

Tuesday, July 19, 2011


the to-do list has been simple lately

  • attack whatever promotes my sanity.
that's it.
i'm sort of awash in to-do lists right now.  so i am just doing whatever can get done.  one day it was editing photos for a client, the next it was scrubbing a bathtub.  we leave soon for a long roadtrip and I just want to go into that sane. i'd love to also have a clean house to come home to, one of my favorite things to do before any trip, clean the house as you leave so it greets you when you get home.  but that isn't essential.

i did finally unpack the two boxes in the master bath and clean it. . .that was awesome.  felt so good.  the upstairs is clean. . .i am sane.

my mother is here this week and I want to try and get every floor cleaned up, that way when we leave next week it was "at least clean as of last week" as opposed to "omg i haven't cleaned that in forever, i am so frustrated."

i am looking forward to rebooting flylady using the app on the ipad.  really.  but right now, I just need to clean what keeps me sane, and flylady is all about that.

summer is going to be busy and i've just had to accept there will be a lot of things that have to wait till school starts.  it's life.  move on.

i have done a few huge things that got moved up the mental to do list sort of organically.  like publishing my business plan for this year.  catching up on sessions before vacation. . .this feels AWESOME. it's not essential but the progress i made feels good.

just keep sane.
just keep sane.
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Friday, July 1, 2011

{pros & cons of being obese}

I thought I would make a list of the Pros and Cons of being obese...this list is by no means exhaustive!

1. Not counting calories
2. Instant gratification - eating what I want/when I want.

1. My knees creak and crackle when I bend them (what the...I'm only 32!).
2. I can't wear any of the clothes I want and the clothes I can wear are not comfortable.
3. I feel very self conscience of how I move through the room (am I waddling?).
4. I fear that someone will congratulate me on my impending birth.
5. I don't feel comfortable in a bathing suit or naked.
6. My feet hurt when I walk.
7. My joints ache.
8. I feel that everyone is looking at me with either pity or disgust.
9. I'm a bad example for my children.
10. I feel very sluggish.
11. When I look down I feel my chins folding. (this is a new one but holy camoly I don't like the way that feels).
12. I feel like life is passing me by.
13. Getting mad at myself for letting this happen.
14. I don't want the people who knew me thin & fit to see me now.
15. I don't have any weight related health problems.......yet!
16. My wedding rings don't fit and I'm not going to pay to have them enlarged....again.
17. I don't feel like myself.
18. The bed shakes when I roll over (or my boobs get in the way).
19. Walking up the stairs makes me short of breath.
20. My shoes have flattened out width wise. :{

21. I have a fear of something happening to me, the EMTs being called and it taking 4 of them to lift and move me.

Now when I am really tempted to eat/drink something I shouldn't I can look at these 21 reasons why I hate being obese and compare them to the 2 reasons 'I like' being obese. I think the choice is clear!

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[hi july]

when did you get here?  so june was fun.  busy.  unexpected.  and now we have july.  hello and how do you do?  

i actually called the pediatric dentist today. i told her to never call me, i love me the email, like seriously, if it's not electronic, it never happened.  i decided that's why i like email and texting, it's there and i can look it up.  voice mails have to be saved and replayed and i can't do that with kids being, well, my kids.  i need important information delivered in a format that is easily accessible to me, that can be digested discretely (meaning i can read and not attract my kids by the sound), and in a means i can come back to multiple times and pick up where i left off-not have to start over.

seriously.  have you tried to take down a voice mail phone number while my children are near you?  you haven't or you would never leave me a voice mail, ever.  i've actually turned away photography clients who insist on calling me, repeatedly.  yeah my phone number is on the card and website, but that's for texting me "baby's diaper exploded, running late, be there soon."  not to call me at 3pm school pick up to ask advice about wardrobe or my availability.  no, that info is not on the site, because that would make me sound well, weird, and possibly social awkward.     

anywho.  i called.  and the drivel above is to prove how that this is indeed monumental for me. i even called the appraiser for our refinance back, right after i listened to her, you guessed it, voice mail.  i think i've maxed out my available awesome for the day.

i then entered actual appointments into the google calendar, what crack was in that coffee this morning?

i've even washed, dried, and folded laundry. not yelled at my kids, enjoyed having a day out with them and my father-in-law (in public places no less), and now i am blogging.

seriously this is a massive assault on my inertia of late. the night before last i finished my niece's photo session from 2 months ago.

i don't think i can handle a to-do list, besides i'm supposed to make them in the morning not at 1 pm.

i'll just add one

  • don't suck at the rest of the day
there, that should do it.

oh and july opam?  yeah.  see june opam. . .cuz it didn't so much get done.
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[empty, the good kind]

The above video is a promotion for the book but I loved the concepts highlighted in the video, and that style of video.  

I found the video in this article which was pretty awesome.  Especially this line "The creative process is a daily assault on the beachhead of apathy."  I could easily substitute inertia for apathy.  
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